Lot's of drama with someone in my life. They were the focus of that last journal entry, and if you could believe it things have actually gone from bad to worse since then!
More stuff happened today and I am partially afraid that we haven't "hit the bottom" yet.
I've seen people I love go in downward spirals before. My sister and Jessica got lucky, others have not. Will X be one of them?
I have some traffic related business to take care of tomorrow among other things.
The weekend was okay because MTV showed two Star Wars movies a day (with many commercials). Didn't have the time to see them all but it was enjoyable to have a good dose of Star Wars.
- Location:Brynn's
I'm not sad or depressed or anything...just disappointed....the ANGRY type of disappointed.
Someone did something tonight that was out of line and just..........ugh. I shouldn't be surprised at these actions coming from them...but that doesn't mean I have to like it.
Am I being vague? YES
It's a public journal and I shouldn't air all my dirty laundry.
- Location:Bushnell
I was going to have a "family trip" of sorts to North Florida for this 4dayweekend but weather has changed that......probably for the best. There are some stuff going on down here and some conversations I really don't want to have (vague for a reason) if I have to leave. I did wind up getting some of the weekend off anyway just in case.
I'm currently in the middle of the mess that is getting my official childcare provider license. I did and passed all the classwork, it's all fingerprinting, background checks and paperwork with the state now.
I'm doing lots of online work on various blogs, podcasts and other things. It's become almost a full time thing with the various other web projects I'm working on (though I am getting paid for some of them).
So this is my PERSONAL blog. No work, no Beatles, no nothing...this is just me talking about my life.....................which happens to be all those things.
I'm in Bushnell right now...a place where I will be spending a good portion of the summer it looks like.
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- Location:Bushnell
New job stuff coming up that I can't really talking about. Let's just say one of my careers is advancing while another side one may be starting.
I'll also be having my "ex-wife" Jessica and her partner Diana moving in for the summer.
Not much else to write at the moment. Don't have it in me.
I'm in the middle of my Florida North To South Tour 2009.
I'll give you my timeline...
Sunday: Went up to Bushnell from New Port Richey for Easter.
Monday: Left with Tim and the boys to go to North Florida (less than an hour from stateline) for wedding.
Tuesday: Wedding.
Wednesday: Drove back to Bushnell.
Thursday (today): Some emergencies kept me in Bushnell. Got back to New Port Richey where I am at my home for the first time all week.
Tomorrow: South Florida.
My "Aunt" Lisa will be starring as Patsy Cline in a stage production "Always, Patsy Cline" and the Beasley's (my second family) will be traveling from all places to see it.
Have some business stuff (and promising stuff) to take care of when I get back.
BUSY BUSY BUSY....I don't mind some of it though. Fun and stressful...and boy was earlier today stressful.
- Location:brynn's place
I can't go into all the details because they are super personal, but she was a part of a section of my life which ended badly. This was a place/circumstance that was part of my life for 6 years. It shaped who I was growing up and I put me on various paths that had I not gone on, my life would not even be recognizable today (where I live, where I work).
But it ended badly. People betrayed. Deep betrayals that go as deep as betrayals go. Nothing was ever (and could ever be) the same again. Not just a betrayal towards me, but my whole family. From the very people we loved the most.
The call from that person from a gone (but not forgotten) part of my life brought flashbacks. Many flashbacks. Unresolved issues. Unresolved anger. Most of it went down in 2005 and I look back at that year as one of the most negative ones of my life (2007 is a close second).
I feel like calling certain people. Letting it out. Saying what wasn't said years ago. But that may just make things worse. I don't know.
- Location:my apartment
I can't sleep and it's 4am but that's okay. I have nothing in particular to do tomorrow. After months of non-stop work, things have slowed down a bit. There are a few reasons and I won't get into all of them. I am a bit concerned, but at the same time signs are pointing to this time off being temporary. After all I've done this year I should enjoy it.
It's funny but 2009 was non-stop and this is the first period where I've been able to relax.
Had a date tonight. It was pretty low-key. Meet in Chilis. You can never tell with these first dates, but we shall see.
- Location:my apartment
Lots has happened, yet things remain the same.
Still life has treated me alright. I recently threw a "surprise" (I use the term loosely) birthday party for Tim down in Boca. Got some of his old friends together and it went well. He needed it.
Scans Daily is kaput. There are some spinoffs and other stuff but it's gone. It's a shame because it was one of my favorite internet comms and really got me into comics in a way I hadn't been in a long time.
Lately I've been dreaming about people...a group of people who have not been in my life for a while. No reason....but my thoughts keep coming back to them. Not sure. I won't give much details here.
Going to Georgia in May to see some Beatle people. Should be be fun. Just hope gas prices stay down.
I should have more to say but I don't....except WATCHMEN was aweome.
- Location:sandi's house
The customer wasn't phased. Just stood there and said she should've kept her problems at home.
- Location:vincent house
Ran into an old co-worker from my days at the Y at Best Buy today. He's working there now. It was very interesting and we discussed the pros and cons of that place. In some ways I had a really really great and growing experience there, but on the same token I also had a really horrible negative experience. It was an odd but important chapter of my life...and who knows it could be a chapter that isn't over yet.
The family I work for is away this week and I am house sitting. It's peaceful not having to wake up at 4:50am and having some time to myself. Part of me isn't sure what to do with it, but I am enjoying the relaxing.
Had dinner with Tim and the boys yesterday. May be taking a trip to South Florida at the end of the month. I suppose I am ready to travel again lol.
- Location:vincent house
I have no idea how, but I rediscovered "Kidsongs" which was a childhood video series I haven't seen since first grade or so. The discography is on Napster and the videos are on Youtube. I've been plowing through them reminiscing.
My "Mr. Nanny" blog for "Nannys Helping Hand" just won "Best Writer" feature by voting today. I am very proud of that and only hope I can keep up the good work. Feeling very productive now that I've been working alot and getting some extra stuff done in my down time.
- Location:my apartment
Yes, I know it's only been a few weeks into the year, but my gosh there has not been any time to breathe!
This weekend was a prime example.
My "other family" lives over in Bushnell which is about 60 miles (a little over an hour of driving) from me in New Port Richey. They are very private people so I won't go into everything that has been going on, but their year has kicked off with unfortunate circumstances that has required some traveling back and fourth.
For reasons too complicated to get into, I have made many trips back and fourth from Bushnell in the past few weeks and this weekend had another exhausting set as I was also on pet duty for my employers in Tarpon Springs (meaning I had to be there a few times a day). As a result I drove 200 miles some days and would be awake for 20 hours and sleep for 4. Not recommended. I am just glad gas is under two dollars (knock on wood) or this would be hurting my wallet.
That long weekend is over and I could breathe, but by gosh, there were times when survival was looking dim. I am doing this on my own free will and nobody is forcing me. I love my "other family" and wouldn't have it any other way.
Not to jinx things either but life is good even if it is busy. Work is going well, and my hobbies are fun. I also feel a sense of freedom with my way of life. My job is flexible (but lucrative) so I can make my own schedule. For many years I was constraint and always had somewhere I NEEDED to be. I couldn't take off an go to Bushnell or drive somewhere for a day or two if I so desired.
Heck even now I am considering going to my first Beatlesfest.
Doing alot of reading as well. I'm not rich, but I'm not struggling the way I was earlier either. I don't want to jinx it but things are going good.
I am not in a relationship though but there are reasons. I did meet a few girls in the past few months who were nice, but things just weren't panning out. To be honest I don't feel the need to go out looking for someone. I'll let things happen and I'm in no rush.
- Location:my apartment
Had some adventures. Here are some highlights and keypoints.
1) Cops making me search the car
2) Robbed by gas station worker...yes...really
3) Flat tire
4) Reunions
5) Blogger parties
6) Saying goodbye forever
I don't want to get into everything now but I am back and ready for life to be normal again...but I doubt it will be.
- Location:Tim's house
Oh and one of the families I work for is taking me to Las Vegas in Feb!
Hm turns out I really don't have a lot to say. Well I'm in Bushnell now so see you all later.
- Location:tim's house
I am now thinking that it could've been fate though. An offer was made to me when I ran into someone that day that wouldn't have happened had I been out of town. I won't say what it is in case things don't happen, but 2009 may see the revival of a part of my life which I had closed the book on.
The 20th was Ashley's wedding. I feel the need to point out she actually got married last year but it was a legal thing and this was the big shabang. I love Ashley and she is one of my oldest friends. We went through Randazzo together!
So I worked the night before, got up at 6am (after 5 hours sleep mind you) and did the 4 hour drive. My mp3 player broke again so no music on the way down except for radio. I went to MARGATE SCHOOL OF BEAUTY because I was driving Icaro to the wedding and he is a student there. I figured I would get a shave and haircut done for the special day as long as I was there.
It took them an hour and they did a horrible job.
We got to the wedding and it was awesome. Very very very pretty. Lots of drama due to exes, and exes of exes but it was fun. I caught the garter belt again and was blindfolded and fooled into placing it on Ashley's husband Alan. I knew something was up due to the laughing and hair on the legs, but I said nothing in case it was the girl. I mean, one of the worst things I could've said was "YOU HAVE HAIRY LEGS" and have it still be the girl. OH MY.
So now I'm cooling it off in Coral Springs for a few more days. I'll also been spending sometime in Bushnell (AKA middle of nowhere) to watch Tim's cats. Bushnell is actually relaxing and peaceful and the time away from madness will do me good.
Lots of other thoughts but this entry is LONG!
- Location:dad and mindys
First thought is the pilots are shot by shot the same thing, but after that the series deviates into other territories. The original ending that the writers had in mind (before being convinced to do the Christmas reunion) was very dark with David (Michael Scott) getting fired and Dawn (Pam) shooting down Tim (Jim) even after he dumps Rachel (Karen).
Still very enjoyable and has some of the funniest stuff I've seen all year. What is really interesting is how it plays up David Brent's d-list celebrity status as after season 2, they documentary supposedly aired.
Work is going great. In fact I had the most profitable week I've ever had....................ever. It's been busy but I have some time off coming up. I'm actually technically working right now, but I'm not sure if I can consider it as such if the child is asleep and I'm typing a blog. Last night I left home to work at 5pm and didn't get back home until 7amish. I've been doing a lot of night shifts and my sleep cycle is starting to mess up again. Oh well, I am busy when I'm awake so I am not as worried about it as I was months ago.
Life is getting better and I hope the track continues.
- Location:Trish's place
I've said there is a curse associated with my visits because something bad and extremely bad always happens with these visits. Seriously. Like insane people almost destroying my career, hospitalization and car problems at the worst times. It was getting so I was afraid to go. Still I love the area and haven't been down since July.
It was nice to see everyone again and I got to have two Thanksgivings. On the way back I took Tamiami trail just to see what it was like. Eh.
Enjoying the day off now.
- Location:my apartment
I am now 23!!
I am bit tense and uneasy this week. Got some bad news about one of the families I work for and that's put me off my rocker a bit. I also feel uneasy about an incident this weekend which was basically nothing but I still will feel better once everything is resolved. There is also alot of confusion about my Thanksgiving plans.
Otherwise things are going awesome! I interviewed Quarryman Rod Davis and will be posting that soon. I am relaxing and work is going well.
Work is going well. Got a raise. Gas prices are lower. I don't want to jinx things, but rough times are over. Things are literally better than they have been in a long time...maybe years.
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