What a weekend!

Lot's of drama with someone in my life. They were the focus of that last journal entry, and if you could believe it things have actually gone from bad to worse since then!

More stuff happened today and I am partially afraid that we haven't "hit the bottom" yet.

I've seen people I love go in downward spirals before. My sister and Jessica got lucky, others have not. Will X be one of them?

I have some traffic related business to take care of tomorrow among other things.

The weekend was okay because MTV showed two Star Wars movies a day (with many commercials). Didn't have the time to see them all but it was enjoyable to have a good dose of Star Wars.

Not happy right now. Not happy at all.

I'm not sad or depressed or anything...just disappointed....the ANGRY type of disappointed.

Someone did something tonight that was out of line and just..........ugh. I shouldn't be surprised at these actions coming from them...but that doesn't mean I have to like it.

Am I being vague? YES

It's a public journal and I shouldn't air all my dirty laundry.

Decided that I need to update this more often!

I was going to have a "family trip" of sorts to North Florida for this 4dayweekend but weather has changed that......probably for the best. There are some stuff going on down here and some conversations I really don't want to have (vague for a reason) if I have to leave. I did wind up getting some of the weekend off anyway just in case.

I'm currently in the middle of the mess that is getting my official childcare provider license. I did and passed all the classwork, it's all fingerprinting, background checks and paperwork with the state now.

I'm doing lots of online work on various blogs, podcasts and other things. It's become almost a full time thing with the various other web projects I'm working on (though I am getting paid for some of them).

So this is my PERSONAL blog. No work, no Beatles, no nothing...this is just me talking about my life.....................which happens to be all those things.

I'm in Bushnell right now...a place where I will be spending a good portion of the summer it looks like.

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Summer is looking like it will be quite interesting.

New job stuff coming up that I can't really talking about. Let's just say one of my careers is advancing while another side one may be starting.

I'll also be having my "ex-wife" Jessica and her partner Diana moving in for the summer.

Not much else to write at the moment. Don't have it in me.

It's been a while. It's also alternated from calm and peaceful to chaotic. A good way to represent how the year is going. I don't mind chaotic now and then truth be told.

I'm in the middle of my Florida North To South Tour 2009.

I'll give you my timeline...

Sunday: Went up to Bushnell from New Port Richey for Easter.

Monday: Left with Tim and the boys to go to North Florida (less than an hour from stateline) for wedding.

Tuesday: Wedding.

Wednesday: Drove back to Bushnell.

Thursday (today): Some emergencies kept me in Bushnell. Got back to New Port Richey where I am at my home for the first time all week.

Tomorrow: South Florida.

My "Aunt" Lisa will be starring as Patsy Cline in a stage production "Always, Patsy Cline" and the Beasley's (my second family) will be traveling from all places to see it.

Have some business stuff (and promising stuff) to take care of when I get back.

BUSY BUSY BUSY....I don't mind some of it though. Fun and stressful...and boy was earlier today stressful.

Last night proved to be very interesting, I got a call from an old friend. She is one of those friends who I used to spend alot of time with, but me living 300 miles away now and years passing have ways of changing those things. Other stuff got in the way of that relationship too but we'll get into that later. In any case, this was a good friend who was now just someone who I would phone chat with a few times a year.

I can't go into all the details because they are super personal, but she was a part of a section of my life which ended badly. This was a place/circumstance that was part of my life for 6 years. It shaped who I was growing up and I put me on various paths that had I not gone on, my life would not even be recognizable today (where I live, where I work).

But it ended badly. People betrayed. Deep betrayals that go as deep as betrayals go. Nothing was ever (and could ever be) the same again. Not just a betrayal towards me, but my whole family. From the very people we loved the most.

The call from that person from a gone (but not forgotten) part of my life brought flashbacks. Many flashbacks. Unresolved issues. Unresolved anger. Most of it went down in 2005 and I look back at that year as one of the most negative ones of my life (2007 is a close second).

I feel like calling certain people. Letting it out. Saying what wasn't said years ago. But that may just make things worse. I don't know.

It's funny, but when alot happens, I never know what to write, even though my life can be pretty full. I had more to say when I was younger and I suppose I am more private now.

I can't sleep and it's 4am but that's okay. I have nothing in particular to do tomorrow. After months of non-stop work, things have slowed down a bit. There are a few reasons and I won't get into all of them. I am a bit concerned, but at the same time signs are pointing to this time off being temporary. After all I've done this year I should enjoy it.

It's funny but 2009 was non-stop and this is the first period where I've been able to relax.

Had a date tonight. It was pretty low-key. Meet in Chilis. You can never tell with these first dates, but we shall see.


 

Lots has happened, yet things remain the same.

Still life has treated me alright. I recently threw a "surprise" (I use the term loosely) birthday party for Tim down in Boca. Got some of his old friends together and it went well. He needed it.

Scans Daily is kaput. There are some spinoffs and other stuff but it's gone. It's a shame because it was one of my favorite internet comms and really got me into comics in a way I hadn't been in a long time.

Lately I've been dreaming about people...a group of people who have not been in my life for a while. No reason....but my thoughts keep coming back to them. Not sure. I won't give much details here.

Going to Georgia in May to see some Beatle people. Should be be fun. Just hope gas prices stay down.

I should have more to say but I don't....except WATCHMEN was aweome.

I was at the post office today. I only go a few times a year. The lady in front of me was being VERY VERY rude to the postal worker. Kept making rude and snide comments and really it was the customers error. The postal worker finally broke down in tears revealing that only minutes before she had been told she was getting cut down to 10 hours a week. She ran into the back and cried.

The customer wasn't phased. Just stood there and said she should've kept her problems at home. 

 Apparently it's very uncomfortable to type lying down. So I am sitting up doing this entry.

Ran into an old co-worker from my days at the Y at Best Buy today. He's working there now. It was very interesting and we discussed the pros and cons of that place. In some ways I had a really really great and growing experience there, but on the same token I also had a really horrible negative experience. It was an odd but important chapter of my life...and who knows it could be a chapter that isn't over yet. 

The family I work for is away this week and I am house sitting. It's peaceful not having to wake up at 4:50am and having some time to myself. Part of me isn't sure what to do with it, but I am enjoying the relaxing. 

Had dinner with Tim and the boys yesterday. May be taking a trip to South Florida at the end of the month. I suppose I am ready to travel again lol.